It really was a wonderful summer. I had so much fun with Joe and Rodney and all our friends. The pool parties were hilarious and, at time, outrageous. The food was fabulous and playing volleyball was great!
I also went with them a few times to sing karaoke, which I never thought I would do but it turned out to be a great time too. Especially the first time I went with them to Hummel's. That night was THE most fun I have had in a very long time. Lots of drinking, singing, eating diner food, Rodney throwing up, it was all a good time. Well, maybe not for Rodney in the throwing up part, but the rest was wonderful.
Still no full-time job for me. I applied for two jobs at two different banks, got a call to interview at one, when I realized that there was NO WAY they would ever hire me when they got a look at my credit report. After all, it is a bank, they have to be thorough and they would not like what they saw when they started searching out information on me. I called that interview off. I stressed myself out so much over it I made this damn cold sore come back above my lip and now I look like a fucking monster! It's so disgusting and it takes at least two weeks for it to go away. Great...
My brother's been sick all week, Autumn's still not working because of her herniated disc, we have no gas at our house, which makes for cold showers (although I'm thankful that Joe and Rodney occasionally let me take a shower at their house!!), and I'm getting concerned about the cold weather approaching and no heat. Oh man...what the fuck.
I have been in a horrid mood all week, know I've been bitchy to everyone, especially when I get home. It just pisses me off because Jim will not cover his face when he sneezes and coughs and he lives in the damn living room, which means he's just spreading his germs so everyone else can get sick too. That would be just what I would need right now. I went to Walgreen's yesterday and bought him some of that gel that you rub on your hands to sanitize them, wishful thinking on my part that he will even use it.
Oh well...
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Lori,
You silly, silly, silly woman!
God how I luvs ya! You have been a blessing to my heart and soul. Keep your strength! Put yourself first in YOUR head. Let everyone else follow YOUR lead.
You are an intelligent, beautiful, graceful woman! Don't ever let that change. Something will come along, TRUST ME ON THIS!!
You know my backstory. You know my troubles. As "peachy" as my life seems to the outside world, it is a daily struggle to overcome many of the feelings you describe. I was EXTREMELY close to my family. I would have taken a bullet for them. (I still would!) The difference this time is that when MY chips were down, I had to learn the VERY HARD way, that you can depend on NO ONE but yourself to pick yourself up.....
I am not trying to be preachy. I am not saying I have all the answers. BUT, take it from my own personal experience....The first step you take for YOURSELF is the hardest. The second is a little easier. Soon you can't believe you lived the way you did....
I am very fortunate that I have people, other than my family, that believe in me. Trust me on this, YOU DO TOO!
Summer may be gone. But FALL is the PARTY season! Carnivals (I know how much you love them--Joan of Arc this evening!), karaoke, sweaters and shorts, haunted houses, cold snaps,Survivor and chili nights........all coming together with friends, no make that framily Friends+family="framily".....
Know that you are loved for you...start believing that in yourself!
You are the best!
xoxo
rodney
Lori, this was one of the best summers wasn't it, having you around and not feeling, well you know what I am saying!!!!!
Don't let others make you sink, because girl and I know this...
YOU CAN SWIM! I taught you!!!
Be strong, focus on you, and know you are loved!
What else can I say that Rodney didn't already say.
Damn - he's a good writer!!!!
BUT all that he said is true.
So you've been standing there for a bit now, take a step!
You have "Framily" there to support you!
Love and Kicks!
Joe
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